Hurt.....in more than one way

This has been a difficult and painful week....for more than one reason. Physical pain had been secondary to the extreme emotional pain. Since March we've lost 4 pets, 1 dog and 3 cats with 2 of them coming 5 days apart.

It's hard enough to lose 1 but 4 in less than 5 months is hard on my heart and spirit.

Medical problems with TJ have been hard on us both physically and financially. People that tell you "you KNOW I have your back", "I'll be there whenever you need me"......didn't and weren't. I didn't need anyone to drop everything they were doing and rush to our aid but thoughts, prayers and words of encouragement would have helped a great deal. The silence from some closest to me was deafening. I found out that some I thought I could "count" on failed at math.

This week I found out, through a post in a private group on Facebook that someone I had cared a great deal for and thought I could trust had been telling another member that I was *talking about her behind her back* and apparently all of my posts were about her. The other person and I took it offline and things came out in the open. Apparently this has been going on for months. This week she had received a phone call while on VACATION. WHY would you call someone on vacation to upset them? Over NOTHING. I've actually had a gut feeling for about 2 months that something just wasn't right....now I know why....and I actually know who even though the other person didn't tell me and I didn't ask. But I know. I am hurt to the bone. I don't know why they did it or what the motivation was. I don't know what to do, how to say something or if I even want to. Trust has been compromised.

I'm hurting in multiple ways. Some of it will eventually lessen and be replaced by the good memories. Some of it might be resolved. Some of it might be beyond the point of repair. Whatever happens I will get through it and be stronger because of it....